I'm sorry I cannot save you...

15 November 2010

I witnessed an event that would change me and my life...

I was stuck in a jam before a toll, and saw a little kitten sitting on the road right in front of my car.
My first instinct was "I should get Evie to get down the car, and grab the kitten to keep it safe from cars"
But I did not open the door...
Then, the kitten crawled near a car in front of me, but stopped right in front of the rear wheel.
I noticed the impending doom that was about to happen.
My heart was screaming "Get your ass down the car and save the kitty!"
Yet... My arms are not moving... My brain is telling me the road is not safe and I should not get down...

Then guess what happens after that?
The wheel ran over the kitty's head right in front of eyes...
Left it struggling in pain, rolling on the road in agony...
And what did I do?
I just sat there!
I could have saved the kitten, but I did not...

After the incident, I kept reminding myself...
I must follow my heart at times like this...
I had ignored my instincts and emotions for far too long, only to be replaced by rationale and logic...

What I can do now is just to pray that its soul can rest,
and pray that I had more strength and bravery during these situations...

I changed... I lost the happiness in my smile...
So wished I had the Dagger of Time to turn back time...
Hope this emo-ness is just temporary...
Because it has started to inflict pain in someone's heart...